Bachelor in UK

Currently finished study advanced diploma ~
Started the study for Bachelor~

Needed to finish two module at TARUC before I go UK ><

About classes :
Attended a few classes and feel very confused and worries ~
Their ascent and language are the difficulty for me...
I cant understand what they said...
Therefore I cant understand what is the subject talk about ~
Seriously very worry about the study in UK ><
Somemore everyone is very hardworking doing their coursework their study.
And I still very relax ~
Enjoying the world ><
I think I seriously need to change my attitude !!!!!

About financial support :
I don't know how my dad prepare the money..
I don't know either he is prepared...
But I think he is prepared...
When we talk and discuss about the money ~
I think he is suffer ~
40k MYR
After exchange it is just 8,000GBP
Maybe lesser than that..
Furthermore, I will use around 10,000MYR here to buy all my necessities.
which include flight ticket, daily use necessities, clothes, luggage, and Ipad ==
I feel guilty ~
If I never spent so much maybe I can save around 10k and can release some of his burden.
Or maybe I should start to save the 40k once I select to study in Tarc.
I should do this once I know this is the path.
But I used up all my money :(
For my own satisfaction .......

Feel sad for my dad.
He need to cover the whole family expenses.
So suffer.
So tough.

I swear !
I wanna fight hard when I start my work.
I wanna earn as much as possible.
I wanna help to lesser my family burden !!

I will ~
This is my life, this is my challenges ^^
I will fight till the end ~

Thank you Dad !
Thank you Mum !
Thank you my Family !

As a eldest daughter ~
I will try my best to be the support for my family ^^
You don't have a son but I will be the son ~
I will let you all have no worries about your old age life ^^

Aza aza fighting ^^

Life

Recentlyhave some topic about life ~
About future ~
What will be in my future ?
What is my occupation ?
How much is my salary ?
Will my life smooth ?

There is so many question for my life for my future :')
Every question ~ i can't give myself a satisfy answer ~
I don't even know what will happen in my life ~
Set target ? But, Can I achieve ?
What type of target I should set ?

Confuse.
Lost.
Unsecure.

This is all the feelings I'm facing now ~
About half year ~ I will be graduated ><
At that time ~ I will need to face the reality world !!!

Another stage of my life is going to start soon ~
The stage that show what I lived and what I learnt for 22 years.

Even I can't know what is my future ~
But, at least I know, what mode I should stay in my future :)

Yeahhhh ~~
I should always remind myself ~
Be happy no worries :)
Do not take everythings as granted, take everythings as experience ~
In the beginning of my life, I should non stop improving myself.
The knowledge of self defense in reality world.
The knowledge of self improvement.
The knowledge of working ~

Life is non stop improving ^^

Chance will not wait for anyone ~ so when I'm young, find for everythings !!!!!
Do not miss golden chance ~
Do not scare pain ~
Do not scare scarifice ~

年轻， 就是本钱 ～
把年轻可以赚的都赚回来吧 ！！！

Long time ago @@

I opened a new blog
and I had forgot about this old blog ~

today :)
I search it back and open it back ^^

many of our old memory here ~
I remember when I first open this blog I told myself to write all my feelings here
after write ~ restart a new me :) no more emo no more sadness..

for the new blog ~ I open it again :) for you ~
to write down our journey ~
yeahhhh~ a far and long distance journey  ><

viewed back this old blog ~ I remember how I loved you ~
the love is still and strong :)
just we become mature...
everythings changed..
im so glad that I still love you so much now ^^

Do you ?

我的生日=]

我的生日。。。

从20/4/2011就有人和我庆祝了。。。。

开心。。。

想想。。。我每年的生日都是不同脸孔帮我清楚。。。

真的真的很开心=]

*college的朋友*

因为他生日陪他过。。。
所以。。。他也给了我一个很不同的生日。。。

谢谢他~~

20/4/2011

他带我去mid valley隔壁那间the gardens>.<

去那里的GSC signature Cinema....看ＲＩＯ　３Ｄ

过后去ｍｉｄ　ｖａｌｌｅｙ　的ｇａｒｄｅｎｓ吃东西。。。

谢谢。。。

*ｆｏｒｍ　５　的朋友＊

这个傻佬骗我说忘记我的生日可是却约我２２／４／２０１１出去。。。＝。＝

在ｔｓ泡了半天。。。

在要回家时送了我礼物。。。＝］

＊ｘｉｉａｏ　ｇｉａ＊

七早八早送礼物到我家～

很开心。。。谢谢你。。。。

你送的吊饰。。。

是我一直想要的。。。。

＊家人＊

妈妈带我们一家去吃扒。。。。

过后在家吹蜡烛切蛋糕＝］

妈妈还要求拍照。。。。

开心死了。。。。〉〈

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０１／０５／２０１１

今天和你出去了。。。非常开心＝］

早上和你去吃炮兵。。。。

想告诉你说。。。。

谁说吃一个ｃｈｉｃｋｙ　ｂｕｎ　和冰是不会饱？？？？

本来打算看戏。。。可是我们要看的戏。。。

时间不对。。。所以就没看了。。。。

过后去你家玩＝］

然后因为下雨。。。。

也不唱ｋ了。。。

直接去吃晚餐。。。。

去吃韩国餐＝］

觉得很内疚。。。。吃了你很贵〉〈

谢谢你～

我对朋友和情人是不一样的。。。

我会比较重视朋友。。。

你可以吗？？？？

就算我冷落你。。。也可以？？？？？

要开学了。。。。少理你了。。。

你还可以对我将好吗？？？

还可以保持当初追我的热忱吗？？？

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最近做工做到很不开心。。。。

好像停了。。。。

可以吗？？？？＝（

突然想买个背包。。。。

来奖励奖励自己。。。。

今年的生日。。。

还没为自己买点东西。。。。

是时候想想了＝］

LOVE~~

爱你 不是因为你的美而已
我越来越爱你
每个眼神触动我的心
因为你让我看见Forever
才了解自己
未来这些日子 要好好珍惜
爱我 有些痛苦有些不公平
如果真的爱我
不是理所当然的决定
感到你的呼吸在我耳边
像微风神奇
温柔地安抚 我的不安定
所以我要 每天研究你的笑容
Ooh~~ 多么自然
Forever love Forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后 你会是所有 幸福的理由
爱情 是场最美最远的旅行
沿途雨季泥泞
偶尔阻碍我们的前进
感到你的体温在我怀里
像阳光和煦
巧妙地融化 我的不安定
不可思议 证明我爱你的理由
Ooh~~ 多么自然
Forever love Forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后 你会是所有 幸福的理由
你感动的眼睛 我沉默的声音
仿佛就是最好的证明
就让我再说一次
I love you ~~
Ooh~~
直到永远
Oh Forever love Forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以后 你会是所有 幸福的理由
Forever love
Forever love
Forever love

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把昨天都作废 现在你在我眼前
我想爱 请给我机会
如果我错了也承担 认定你就是答案
我不怕谁嘲笑我极端
相信自己的直觉
顽固的仍不喊累
爱上你 我不撤退
我说过 我不闪躲 我非要这麽做
讲不听也偏要爱 更努力爱 让你明白
没有别条路能走 你决定要不要陪我
讲不听偏爱 看我感觉爱
等你的依赖 对你偏爱
痛也很愉快
等你的依赖
不后悔 有把握 我不闪躲 我非要这麽做
讲不听也偏要爱 更努力爱 让你明白
没有别条路能走 你决定要不要陪我
讲不听偏爱 看我感觉爱
等你的依赖 对你偏爱
痛也很愉快

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你给的。。。很贴心。。。

我怕我伤了你。。

我厉害乱想。。。

让你也不开心。。。

0422

12/04/2011~[ten days to go^^yahoooooo!!!!!]
is APRIL now^^
my birthday is coming~~~SOON!!!!!!
shhhhhhh......
mummy say cant celebrate....
because of the KIRA NYAWA geh=.=
said wat...my unlucky still haven't gone.....
18...din celebrate...
19....also>.<
wanna wait wait wait....
but wat the definition for celebrate????o.0
go out gai gai...can????
receive present ...can?????
eat ice-cream cake....can???
hmmmmmm~~~~
tis year i wish....
~i can dye my hair~~
~my account's money wont finis by me>.<
~i can go out for one day without time limit^^[impossible!!!!!]
~my mum wont become so strict....
~get closer wif family=]
~all my fren happy=]
~i can get good result in study[to prove to my mum tat i din choose wrong]
~i wish my fren can come to my house n gv my mum c c ^^[tis.....too difficult~~]
~i wish all my wish come true~~
hahahahahahahahahaXDDDD[how greedy m i>.<]

just a day wanna celebrate with u all n leave a wonderful bravo memory in my mind^^

10/04/2011
went FRIM for hiking n playing waterfall..
with SMP fren^^
a wonderful day =]
i never tot tat i will go hiking wif fren...
cuz i have no sport cell=.=
but...
it's really fun...
thanks to all~~
i hope i still have chances to go^^

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last paper on 14th....
gambateh all^^
i hope i will get a good result....
dun wan cry when taking result...very fish arrrrrr>.<

have big improvement to our relationship...mum=/
at least now v talk.....
i hope tis condition can stay for a long time.....
can v????
i just dun like argue....n feel tat home not sweet n warm>.<

stupid=.=

刚刚去做了一件这世人发誓了永远不再做的东西。。。。

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz=.=

可是。。。这次我竟然没有心痛的感觉。。。。

从他写的东西看来。。。他已经忘记我了。。。

他也有新对象了。。。还在考虑要不要追。。。

以前的我一看到这些。。。一定会很伤心很生气很心痛。。。

可是不懂为什么。。。今天没有~~~

开心开心=]

还是我放下了？？？？

可能吗？？？？