lost...in mind...

nearby everythings go smoothly...
peace life...
hahahaha...
i lovin it...
although hv a bit busy...bt still can handle it...
last saturday...start tat day i told myself hv to control all my feelings...
to you...
i have to control my love to u...
damm...
got a little bit difficult...
i not dare to tell u tat u....change edi...
change to...a bit good...
treat me more good...
tat night u told me u very very miss me...
i feel suprise...
hahaha..
u is my lao gong..
but long time edi...
i also forgot last time i say u miss me is when...
start from when u din care me tat much...
bt nw...
u change edi...
bt i dare nt tell u..
cuz i m selfish...
i scare it will lost...
will it??

saturday...

saturday tat day we met...
is tis the last time??
i dun knw...
bt after tis meet ...
i knw more...bt...heart more pain...
strange...
when u told me...
i nt the girl tat u want n nt the type tat u like anymore....
my heart reli reli pain...
i try my best to let we closer...
bt i get tis type of ans...
its break my heart...
u said u onli left 50% love to me....
u feel tat we will break one day....
muz break d....
cuz...i nt the type edi...
mayb...one day u will find back the other 50%..
mayb one day it will turn to zero...
mayb and mayb...
u put my name in ur phone as 讨厌的人。。。
u said tis is becuz tat time break feel very angry and put d...
haha..nid ma??
nid do like tis???
sad arrrrr...
sometime treat me so good...sometime treat me so bad...
wat can i do...
wat should i do arrr....

before n after

we look like go back to before edi...

is tis real..

or juz a joke????

i wish we can go back...

too many things happen between u n me these time...

too many changes...

too many challenge...

too many tears...

too many wounds...

hahaha...

my love to u...

still too many...

i dun knw wat i can do...

bt i will learn...

knowing u is the best things for me in tis world...

loving u is the most happy things for me in tis world...

love by u....

hahaha...

is the most most most....

happy...lucky..best...things in tis world...

i love u.....muacks....

lies

wat u promise u din do....
wat i promise i try my best to do edi...
but u???
only wan ppl forgive u n nvr try to change urself...
wat i do 4 u u wont c n never c...
i feel tired arrr...
from nw on...
wat u wan to to...
i wont block u again....
if u reli wan to smoke...
juz smoke enough...
if smoke can solve prob...
nobody will gt crazy...
10 months...
u lie to me 4 10 months arrrr...
hw i gonna to accept tis arrrr...
n forgive u arrrr...
do u understand the pain in my heart???
u juz wan me understand u...
n hw bout me???
who understand me arrrr????
i wan to control my love....
to u...
i hv no more energy to handle all tis stuff...

unhappy d one day

today..'he' has no mood....n of cuz....almost argue again..
early in the morning told me tat i dun understand i dun understand d....
then call me help 'he' do karangan....
after tat...say no nid...
gv x do...
damn...
wat is my place nw???
wan then wan...dun wan then dun wan arrr???
all 'he' friend espeacially girl wont treat he like i treat 'he'....
hw i treat 'he' oooo???
not good mie????haiz....
'he' dun wan reply my msg...
i dun wan argue wif 'him'....juz ignore 'he'???
or explain???
bt 'he' no mood oooo......
sad arrr.......
somebody teach me leh????
i dun knw hw to do arrrrr........

simple d everyday...

recently...i feel tat my heart my mind is so peaceful...
mayb many things c clearly edi...
bt i still cant sure tat one day...
can i put down everythings????
wan 1 week edi...
dun knw tis week will we argue???
ur holiday is almost finish...my holiday haven reach....
when u start school u will become more busy...
n me...still the same....
bt i knw hw to keep the feelings in my heart...
i always love u tat much...
hahaha...
can u feel it???
i can feel tat sometime u treat me good n sometime u hv no mood...
i start understand everyone hv their characteristic...
i cant force u to b good...
bt i can force myself to b perfect....
i love night...
midnight...
when everyone is sleeping...
while i m chating wif u...
u at midnight...will become talkative...
many things u will tell me at tat time...
n my heart is totally quite n peace...
wow...
i m happy tat i everyday is simple...
my life gt u ....friends....n family....
wat a perfect life...
sometime...i will think....
when u will leave me???
i wanna go out wif u...
go out n find the feels tat we hv together before....

a formula when i miss u...

today is the first day we together again...
hahaha...again...
but...the feel is lesser edi...
maybe...later...will no feel ...
today i change his name in my phone....
"~bi~淡了"
i change like tis...
to remind me tat 'he' less feel edi...
n tis time is last opprtunity...
i cant angry 'him'..
i cant force 'him'...
i hv to understand n tolent he...
i hv to control...
i hv to dun care so much ...to control my tempered...
will tis a happy ending???
m i right to do tis???
haiz...
dun know arrrr....
if our distance is 100 steps..
u walk out one step...
i will walk to u 99 steps...
but when i walk edi 99 steps...
u walk backward one step...
n leave me...
walk all 100 steps alone...
tired...
at last...
i feel...
a bit tired edi....
i found a formula...when i miss u...
when i miss u one minute...
my mind will appear 60's u....=every second i miss u....
in the other way...
if i dun mind u...in one minutes....
i will forget u 60's u=60's uwill disappear in my mind....
if my heart is full of u...
then i want to calulate the area of my heart....1mm cube=1 u....
then i need how many time to forget u???
miss u will increase 60's u....din miss u will decrease 60's of u...
shit...very complicated....
i think i hard to forget u...n i could nt din miss u in every second every minute...
will u???