分手后的日子。。你过得还好吗？？？
我。。很想念你。。。
不知道。。。你过得怎样？？？
我最近都很忙。。。
最近都觉得自己很大压力。。。
家里有事。。。
学校功课多。。。
活动也多。。。
和朋友也好了很多。。。已经两个星期了。。。
昨天。。你找我。。。
问我过得好吗。。。
我答你。。我过得还好。。。
你问我。。。不想收到你的信息吗？？？
我说没有啊。。。
过后你问我。。。是不是有了新的？？？
我说没有。。占时不想有。。。一个人也很好。。。
你说。。。是吗？？？不想你噢。。。
不想我？？？你真的不想我吗？？？
我很想你。。。你知道吗？？？
我每天都在想你。。。你知道吗？？？
为什么你要告诉我你不想我？？？
我很辛苦。。。很累。。。
很想完完全全放下你。。。
可是。。。
心里却有把声音叫我等你。。。
每天就将过活。。。
如果有一天。。。我真的发现你不会回来了。。。。
我要怎样过？？？
然后。。我会怎样？？？
还会笑得出吗？？？
爱你爱到好深。。。也好心痛。。。

烦。。。讨厌。。。

最近的日子过到很痛苦。。。
首先。。。
我一次又一次的被别人骚扰。。。
讨厌死了。。。
现在每次搭车都心怕怕的。。。
好希望可以找到朋友载哦。。。
不喜欢不安全的感觉。。。

最近一直和朋友出去。。。
到处走。。。到处买东西。。。
虽然知道自己不是很有钱。。。可是还是一直会想买。。。
不是说金牛最省钱的吗？？？
我是怎么啦？？？
觉得自己开始负载了。。。~汗~~

虽然是将。。。还是买了很多自己喜欢的东西。。。嘻嘻。。。

至于。。。
和朋友还有和别人的相处嘛。。。
好像开始出现问题了。。。
可能大家的想法不一样。。。
也可能。。。自己太幼稚。。。
太不成熟了。。。
是令朋友反感了吗？？？
还是令他们困扰了。。。
我不知道。。。
只知道。。。原来我在朋友的眼中是一个悲观的人。。。
这个应该要努力改了。。。

接下来。。。是我和你的事了。。。
我们。。。分手了。。。
一个星期了。。。
这次我故意不去记我们分手的日期。。。
我很怕。。。分手越久我会月相昵。。。
很奇怪吧。。。
这次。。是真的了吗？？？
我怕是真的。。。你的所有事情。。。都会让我对你的思念越深。。。
其实。。。真的不知道应该要怎样处理和你的事。。。
很多事情。。。我知道是我自己太在乎了。。。
弄到自己辛苦。。。你也辛苦。。。
因为很爱所以很在乎。。。
可能分开一段时间对我们都好吧。。。
我不敢去想我们会不会复合。。。
我们会吗？？？

学业好像开始荒废了。。。
哈哈。。。
怎么办啊？？？
变懒了变懒了。。。
要努力回了。。。

怎样都好。。。
现在的我知道。。。
什么事情都要自己解决。。。
不可以一直靠别人。。。坚强吧。。。
林子津。。。你是可以的。。。

BREAK...

today is friday...friday 4 me should b a happy day..
but...
start from yesterday...
it juz can b a memory edi...
all will become a memory...
hahahaha...until now..
i still feel wanna cry...
y u wanna hurt me like tat..
bcuz of money..
u wanna argue wif me n separate wif me???
do u knw how hurt am i??
borrow money 4 u to buy cigarettes???
how can i do tis??
u told how to do tis???
n u blame me 4 all of tis...
how i overcome all this things???

new semester..new life...new me....new subject...

friend...

i ask edi...

but it's tat the ans??is it solved??

confusing...hate tis feel...

dun knw wat to do...n juz can done nothing...

but still a happy new semester...wif some new friend...

shopping..playing..chatting...doing homework....

all together....

u...

juz finis ur exam..trial exam...

having a bad mood...

always scold me...

but still sweet sweet..

juz...

less topics to chat...

every friday will very very happy n excited..

bcuz can c u...

happy...

knw tat u reli reli back to me...

i feel so appreciate...

when u were having your exam...

u r very hot temper...

always angry...

i still can sabar..hahaha...

but after u angry...1hour 2 hour.....

u will say sorry to me n tam me...

tat was the most gladly things...

school...

everyday also happy to go school...

bcuz...everybody also in school...hahaha

can c u all will make my mood greater...

try to work harder tis sem...

cuz things is going more difficult...

hope i can stand for it for a long time...

ha....

hamster...

i m getting a hamster from six soon..

happy..

but mum has a bit disagree..

she said her nose is allergic..

n i promise...

if my hamster make her nose goes allergic again...

i ...

will give it to other ppl by myself...

hope tis day wont come...

to let u stay beside me for a long long time...

lala..i will keep ur cleanness in the best way...

me...

having a happy life in tis sem..

hope all my friend also...

happy forever....

拜四那天和做工的朋友去ts...蛮爽的....
你叫我帮你买一件衣。。。。然后头发长了。。。要拿钱剪头发。。。
就叫我拜五出来喝茶。。。还蛮开心的。。。不过。。。希望下次出来可以是。。。
纯粹想出来喝茶。。。不是有事才出来。。。
你说以后。。每个拜五都出来喝茶。。。有点难以相信。。。希望是真的。。。。
如果是真的。。。再累我都愿意去。。。

朋友。。。
不懂从几时开始就发现我和你的友谊。。。
有了很大的变化了。。
很想问你。。。可是我却不敢。。。整个假期。。。在那里想也问了很多人。。。
应该怎样开口问你呢？？
是我做错了什么我不知道吗？？？
烦。。。看到你想开口和你说话。。。却觉得怪怪的。。。
只好一直回避。。。讨厌啊。。。
也不知道找谁帮忙。。。
我们为什么会突然将的叻。。。==

和你的感情越来越好了。。。
等到你回来了。。。
好开心噢噢噢。。。哈哈。。。
开学时我最开心的日子。。。
只要我可以把和朋友的误会都解了。。。我会更开心。。。

曾经。。我们也是好朋友。。。
希望以后都是。。。

真的要鼓起勇气问你咯。。。。加油。。。。

tiring~~~

recently feel everything no so good no so smooth..
friend..
family...
n u...
hv a bit lonely...
i think something is wrong between my mind..haha...
start dun like one thing...
felt...like...
u r too over n become fake...
strange strange d....
u like to tell ur brilliant history bt...
haiz...
feel fake la...
b humble a bit....
nw not = to future..
nid add oil more ..
i also nid jiayou..gambateh...
met a stronger ppl....
feel become small again...
hardworking.....
ya..nid more hardworking...
after tis week...
all over...
my centre point is education...not u....
yes...u r the secong centre point..==

lost...in mind...

nearby everythings go smoothly...
peace life...
hahahaha...
i lovin it...
although hv a bit busy...bt still can handle it...
last saturday...start tat day i told myself hv to control all my feelings...
to you...
i have to control my love to u...
damm...
got a little bit difficult...
i not dare to tell u tat u....change edi...
change to...a bit good...
treat me more good...
tat night u told me u very very miss me...
i feel suprise...
hahaha..
u is my lao gong..
but long time edi...
i also forgot last time i say u miss me is when...
start from when u din care me tat much...
bt nw...
u change edi...
bt i dare nt tell u..
cuz i m selfish...
i scare it will lost...
will it??

saturday...

saturday tat day we met...
is tis the last time??
i dun knw...
bt after tis meet ...
i knw more...bt...heart more pain...
strange...
when u told me...
i nt the girl tat u want n nt the type tat u like anymore....
my heart reli reli pain...
i try my best to let we closer...
bt i get tis type of ans...
its break my heart...
u said u onli left 50% love to me....
u feel tat we will break one day....
muz break d....
cuz...i nt the type edi...
mayb...one day u will find back the other 50%..
mayb one day it will turn to zero...
mayb and mayb...
u put my name in ur phone as 讨厌的人。。。
u said tis is becuz tat time break feel very angry and put d...
haha..nid ma??
nid do like tis???
sad arrrrr...
sometime treat me so good...sometime treat me so bad...
wat can i do...
wat should i do arrr....

before n after

we look like go back to before edi...

is tis real..

or juz a joke????

i wish we can go back...

too many things happen between u n me these time...

too many changes...

too many challenge...

too many tears...

too many wounds...

hahaha...

my love to u...

still too many...

i dun knw wat i can do...

bt i will learn...

knowing u is the best things for me in tis world...

loving u is the most happy things for me in tis world...

love by u....

hahaha...

is the most most most....

happy...lucky..best...things in tis world...

i love u.....muacks....

lies

wat u promise u din do....
wat i promise i try my best to do edi...
but u???
only wan ppl forgive u n nvr try to change urself...
wat i do 4 u u wont c n never c...
i feel tired arrr...
from nw on...
wat u wan to to...
i wont block u again....
if u reli wan to smoke...
juz smoke enough...
if smoke can solve prob...
nobody will gt crazy...
10 months...
u lie to me 4 10 months arrrr...
hw i gonna to accept tis arrrr...
n forgive u arrrr...
do u understand the pain in my heart???
u juz wan me understand u...
n hw bout me???
who understand me arrrr????
i wan to control my love....
to u...
i hv no more energy to handle all tis stuff...

unhappy d one day

today..'he' has no mood....n of cuz....almost argue again..
early in the morning told me tat i dun understand i dun understand d....
then call me help 'he' do karangan....
after tat...say no nid...
gv x do...
damn...
wat is my place nw???
wan then wan...dun wan then dun wan arrr???
all 'he' friend espeacially girl wont treat he like i treat 'he'....
hw i treat 'he' oooo???
not good mie????haiz....
'he' dun wan reply my msg...
i dun wan argue wif 'him'....juz ignore 'he'???
or explain???
bt 'he' no mood oooo......
sad arrr.......
somebody teach me leh????
i dun knw hw to do arrrrr........

simple d everyday...

recently...i feel tat my heart my mind is so peaceful...
mayb many things c clearly edi...
bt i still cant sure tat one day...
can i put down everythings????
wan 1 week edi...
dun knw tis week will we argue???
ur holiday is almost finish...my holiday haven reach....
when u start school u will become more busy...
n me...still the same....
bt i knw hw to keep the feelings in my heart...
i always love u tat much...
hahaha...
can u feel it???
i can feel tat sometime u treat me good n sometime u hv no mood...
i start understand everyone hv their characteristic...
i cant force u to b good...
bt i can force myself to b perfect....
i love night...
midnight...
when everyone is sleeping...
while i m chating wif u...
u at midnight...will become talkative...
many things u will tell me at tat time...
n my heart is totally quite n peace...
wow...
i m happy tat i everyday is simple...
my life gt u ....friends....n family....
wat a perfect life...
sometime...i will think....
when u will leave me???
i wanna go out wif u...
go out n find the feels tat we hv together before....

a formula when i miss u...

today is the first day we together again...
hahaha...again...
but...the feel is lesser edi...
maybe...later...will no feel ...
today i change his name in my phone....
"~bi~淡了"
i change like tis...
to remind me tat 'he' less feel edi...
n tis time is last opprtunity...
i cant angry 'him'..
i cant force 'him'...
i hv to understand n tolent he...
i hv to control...
i hv to dun care so much ...to control my tempered...
will tis a happy ending???
m i right to do tis???
haiz...
dun know arrrr....
if our distance is 100 steps..
u walk out one step...
i will walk to u 99 steps...
but when i walk edi 99 steps...
u walk backward one step...
n leave me...
walk all 100 steps alone...
tired...
at last...
i feel...
a bit tired edi....
i found a formula...when i miss u...
when i miss u one minute...
my mind will appear 60's u....=every second i miss u....
in the other way...
if i dun mind u...in one minutes....
i will forget u 60's u=60's uwill disappear in my mind....
if my heart is full of u...
then i want to calulate the area of my heart....1mm cube=1 u....
then i need how many time to forget u???
miss u will increase 60's u....din miss u will decrease 60's of u...
shit...very complicated....
i think i hard to forget u...n i could nt din miss u in every second every minute...
will u???

a panic day...

today...i will receive ans from'him'...
in a bad mood...
very scare...
today my eng journal is bout friend...
i going to write about 'he'...next journal...
har..will tis ok???
i go out wif a new friend today...
becuz today is important day...n maybe will become a sad day...
then...
i appoint my friend to go out...
all said dun wan...
haiz...
at last ...
i go out wif a new friend...
thank you for the new friend for accompany me...
hahaha...
dun knw y ...
today bought many things...
i bought a two shirt...
a handphone accessory...
n a nail enamel...
bankrup edi...
hahahaha...
but at least got a few min i din think about 'he'...
when reach home...i straight away sleep...
when i wake up...i saw many message n missed call....
'he' said tis is the last opportunity for us...
y 'he'said like i do wrong everything....n 'he'does nothing...
but....
last opportunity???
also good la...
maybe start from today...i will lost 'he'....
i wont expect tis wont happen...
but ...
try my best to repair our relationship lo...
our complicated relationship...

is coming soon...:(

tomorrow is 10th june...
is coming soon...
u say u will gv my ans..tomorrow...
gt a bit scare...
n very afraid...
haiz...
god pls help me...
pls let 'he' the ans tat i want...
today ..he din find me...
god arrr..
don let 'he' adapt the life tat without me...
i very selfish.....
i juz wan 'he'....
yesterday night...'he' find me...
said tat 'he' very confuse...
tired...
i told 'him' my heart voice...
dun knw will i touch 'him'...
or wont???
juz gv me some tips...
god...
is 'he' alright nw??
still headache???
can i sms 'he'???
or dont disturb 'he'???
haiz...fan....

again n again...

today...no...is yesterday night...very hard for me..

again...i wan to give up but hard...

can u care bout my feelings???

u like her or me...

u said u come back edi...

n feel me is the best...between me n she...

u lie...

u hurt me...

wat i do wrong???

u said i force u...damm...

who force u???

force u wat???u wan me wait for ur ans again...

but...

i feel wanna give up...

if i...disappear in ur world....

will u feel sad???

maybe not...cuz u change edi...