before n after

we look like go back to before edi...

is tis real..

or juz a joke????

i wish we can go back...

too many things happen between u n me these time...

too many changes...

too many challenge...

too many tears...

too many wounds...

hahaha...

my love to u...

still too many...

i dun knw wat i can do...

bt i will learn...

knowing u is the best things for me in tis world...

loving u is the most happy things for me in tis world...

love by u....

hahaha...

is the most most most....

happy...lucky..best...things in tis world...

i love u.....muacks....

lies

wat u promise u din do....
wat i promise i try my best to do edi...
but u???
only wan ppl forgive u n nvr try to change urself...
wat i do 4 u u wont c n never c...
i feel tired arrr...
from nw on...
wat u wan to to...
i wont block u again....
if u reli wan to smoke...
juz smoke enough...
if smoke can solve prob...
nobody will gt crazy...
10 months...
u lie to me 4 10 months arrrr...
hw i gonna to accept tis arrrr...
n forgive u arrrr...
do u understand the pain in my heart???
u juz wan me understand u...
n hw bout me???
who understand me arrrr????
i wan to control my love....
to u...
i hv no more energy to handle all tis stuff...

unhappy d one day

today..'he' has no mood....n of cuz....almost argue again..
early in the morning told me tat i dun understand i dun understand d....
then call me help 'he' do karangan....
after tat...say no nid...
gv x do...
damn...
wat is my place nw???
wan then wan...dun wan then dun wan arrr???
all 'he' friend espeacially girl wont treat he like i treat 'he'....
hw i treat 'he' oooo???
not good mie????haiz....
'he' dun wan reply my msg...
i dun wan argue wif 'him'....juz ignore 'he'???
or explain???
bt 'he' no mood oooo......
sad arrr.......
somebody teach me leh????
i dun knw hw to do arrrrr........

simple d everyday...

recently...i feel tat my heart my mind is so peaceful...
mayb many things c clearly edi...
bt i still cant sure tat one day...
can i put down everythings????
wan 1 week edi...
dun knw tis week will we argue???
ur holiday is almost finish...my holiday haven reach....
when u start school u will become more busy...
n me...still the same....
bt i knw hw to keep the feelings in my heart...
i always love u tat much...
hahaha...
can u feel it???
i can feel tat sometime u treat me good n sometime u hv no mood...
i start understand everyone hv their characteristic...
i cant force u to b good...
bt i can force myself to b perfect....
i love night...
midnight...
when everyone is sleeping...
while i m chating wif u...
u at midnight...will become talkative...
many things u will tell me at tat time...
n my heart is totally quite n peace...
wow...
i m happy tat i everyday is simple...
my life gt u ....friends....n family....
wat a perfect life...
sometime...i will think....
when u will leave me???
i wanna go out wif u...
go out n find the feels tat we hv together before....

a formula when i miss u...

today is the first day we together again...
hahaha...again...
but...the feel is lesser edi...
maybe...later...will no feel ...
today i change his name in my phone....
"~bi~淡了"
i change like tis...
to remind me tat 'he' less feel edi...
n tis time is last opprtunity...
i cant angry 'him'..
i cant force 'him'...
i hv to understand n tolent he...
i hv to control...
i hv to dun care so much ...to control my tempered...
will tis a happy ending???
m i right to do tis???
haiz...
dun know arrrr....
if our distance is 100 steps..
u walk out one step...
i will walk to u 99 steps...
but when i walk edi 99 steps...
u walk backward one step...
n leave me...
walk all 100 steps alone...
tired...
at last...
i feel...
a bit tired edi....
i found a formula...when i miss u...
when i miss u one minute...
my mind will appear 60's u....=every second i miss u....
in the other way...
if i dun mind u...in one minutes....
i will forget u 60's u=60's uwill disappear in my mind....
if my heart is full of u...
then i want to calulate the area of my heart....1mm cube=1 u....
then i need how many time to forget u???
miss u will increase 60's u....din miss u will decrease 60's of u...
shit...very complicated....
i think i hard to forget u...n i could nt din miss u in every second every minute...
will u???

a panic day...

today...i will receive ans from'him'...
in a bad mood...
very scare...
today my eng journal is bout friend...
i going to write about 'he'...next journal...
har..will tis ok???
i go out wif a new friend today...
becuz today is important day...n maybe will become a sad day...
then...
i appoint my friend to go out...
all said dun wan...
haiz...
at last ...
i go out wif a new friend...
thank you for the new friend for accompany me...
hahaha...
dun knw y ...
today bought many things...
i bought a two shirt...
a handphone accessory...
n a nail enamel...
bankrup edi...
hahahaha...
but at least got a few min i din think about 'he'...
when reach home...i straight away sleep...
when i wake up...i saw many message n missed call....
'he' said tis is the last opportunity for us...
y 'he'said like i do wrong everything....n 'he'does nothing...
but....
last opportunity???
also good la...
maybe start from today...i will lost 'he'....
i wont expect tis wont happen...
but ...
try my best to repair our relationship lo...
our complicated relationship...

is coming soon...:(

tomorrow is 10th june...
is coming soon...
u say u will gv my ans..tomorrow...
gt a bit scare...
n very afraid...
haiz...
god pls help me...
pls let 'he' the ans tat i want...
today ..he din find me...
god arrr..
don let 'he' adapt the life tat without me...
i very selfish.....
i juz wan 'he'....
yesterday night...'he' find me...
said tat 'he' very confuse...
tired...
i told 'him' my heart voice...
dun knw will i touch 'him'...
or wont???
juz gv me some tips...
god...
is 'he' alright nw??
still headache???
can i sms 'he'???
or dont disturb 'he'???
haiz...fan....

again n again...

today...no...is yesterday night...very hard for me..

again...i wan to give up but hard...

can u care bout my feelings???

u like her or me...

u said u come back edi...

n feel me is the best...between me n she...

u lie...

u hurt me...

wat i do wrong???

u said i force u...damm...

who force u???

force u wat???u wan me wait for ur ans again...

but...

i feel wanna give up...

if i...disappear in ur world....

will u feel sad???

maybe not...cuz u change edi...